Well Tomorrow will just be an ordinary day for most people but as for my family we will hit the 2 year mark with my dad being gone. Has it really been 2 years? Was Tatum really only 9 months old when he died? It feels like just yesterday when my dad was in the hospital and i called him wishing him good luck on his surgery and asking silly questions like "are you scared for the procedure? Or.... Dad are you going to die? I still remember his laugh when i asked him that!( I am the big over dramatic one in the family) And with him replying.." Haha jenny i am not going to die. its a simple procedure that they do a million times a day! And no i am not scared its an adventure. I ended the call with i love you dad. Who would of thought that would have been the last time i talk to him! Sometimes i wander if it would have been easier if we would have had the chance to say good-bye! Instead of a very sudden death.
Even though i didn't have the chance to say good bye like i had hoped for. I was able to in my dreams! I had a dream a while ago that my dad called me and said heavenly father didn't let you have a good bye but he is letting you now! I said everything i wanted to say to him in my dream! And the best part is it felt so real! That s one dream i ll hang on to!(which is why i am writing it in this cuz i forget a lot of stuff!)
Iam so grateful for my family! We are such a close and strong family! even more so going through this! I love you Dad! Thanks for being such an amazing father to us. We miss you terribly!
I would add more but Tatum is screaming her head off- (that s odd She never cries)Iam kidding for those of you who dont know me.







